Diet time (you drive me crazy)

Well, the first attack came from facebook:

i was something like getting mad with this Tan Kee Hooi at first. This guy kept saying I m FAT since like, hmm, 3 years ago i think?

1. He reminded me i'm fat EVERYTIME i saw him
2. He said i'm really fat comparing to his dream girl
3. He said his family kept yelling when they saw my photo: "Oh my god, she's SO FAT!"

He drove me crazy. I felt like gonna peel his skin. Instead of doing something against law, I played basketball, I danced, I controlled my diet. It was a hard time for someone lazy like me. Two months later, I looked better in front of camera, I could wear S-size shirt, and yeah, I forgave and appreciated him for getting me frustrated.

And now, yea, he started again.

I admited that I did not go for basketball anymore, I eat quite a lot everyday, I sit after having my meal, I cheat myself that my tummy was not that obvious and still can be hide, I tell everyone that I m 48kg (some trust it and others laugh like hell).

I WANTED to ignore him, until the second advise came from MSN, telling me that I should try to be on diet as I looked fatter in the latest photos that I posted on facebook. DID I?? It is meaningless to check back the photos that I posted or remove the tags. I put my hand on my tummy and arghh, hate to face it but I should not escape from the fact anymore.

I'm 168cm tall and my weight right now is 5X kg (dare not step on any bathroom scale but yea, i think it is around 54kg or more). I was in a great shock when I read from paper that Khalil Fong is 52kg with his 172cm height!! I m shorter than him and heavier than him.Something went wrong with him? Or me?

No excuses to run from this critical issue anymore. Give me two months, let's see how far can I go. Aim for 50kg. Not too fat and not too thin, just enough. Skinny is not my type. Some more, I will need a super-duper push ups if I get as skinny as Kate Moss or Sammi Cheng. 

♥ siawshan

Erhem, my first time writing in English.

Yea I know my English is something like limited-company,

Don't laugh. 

At least please give me a clap for my bravery,

流失 :(

                    好像吉本娜娜书里的女主角一样，我写东西的能量，
                    在日常作息中，一点一点在消失。

讲故事的能力没有了。

连完整的句子也构不起来。

                        究竟是被什么给磨蚀了，我来不及想。
                       急着想写些什么，反而一脚陷入自茧的困境里。
                       心烦，不如不要写了。

可是，如果不写，我还能做什么呢。
对于故事，我还有太多的眷恋。







- Wanna have a travel by my own :( -
♥ siawshan

♥ 神秘嘉宾

上午11点14分，我翘脚坐在兵如港国小教师办公室内。
窗外烈日炎炎，室内空气干燥。


三个月没有写部落格，落得这样轻松自在。
不用 PS 照片，不用冲人气，不用逼自己更新文章。




是，我回来了。

这次重新出发，

我为自己而写。

 ♥  siawshan